Aku. Dia. Dunia

aku tgh baca buku baru dari amir amin halim.. agak menarik..luahan tiap dari hati dia yang dia untai dalam bentuk puisi.. nice sebab bila baca kadang tu kena dengan diri sendiri.. so one of my feveret, tajuk dia

PSIKO

tolong percaya;

aku takut

untuk hilang

engkau

dari dunia

aku

aku risau

sungguh.

apa aku fikir dari luahan psiko ni yela kadang tu bila hidup dia dan dia.. aku dan aku.. kamu dan kamu tu dah terlalu serasi semacam tak boleh dipisahkan.. macam mana pun kita akan patah balik semula dengan org tu, aku pernah lalu semua tu.. ye! sebab cinta aku rela segala apa.. terima segala yang buruk tentang dia.. cinta.. buta.. aku dengar satu ceramah tentang takdir itu keindahan.. bukan bukan..bukan aku nak uji takdir.. aku sayang dia.. aku tak sanggup hilang dia.. aku tak mampu hidup tanpa dia.. ya aku pernah cakap semua tu suatu masa dulu.. "aku tak mampu hidup tanpa kau disisi tanpa  cinta kau hari-hari".. tapi kerana sayang yang sebesar alam semesta ini lah aku biar dia pergi.. kerana takdir itu keindahan.. aku nak rasa betapa indah takdir yang di-atur untuk aku.. kerana keyakinan dalam hati yang konon aku perlu hidup dengan ada nya dia dan syg nya tiap hari..lalu aku putuskan untuk dia pergi...sekarang! aku tgh lalui liku-liku takdir bersama keindahan-keindahan tanpa aku sedar.. Ya Allah.. teruskanlah Kau bekalkan hati aku dengan ketabahan dan keyakinan.. yakin dengan segala yang Kau tentukan untuk aku Ya Allah walau terpaksa melepaskan pergi suatu keCINTAan.. sampaikan salam kasih dan sayang ini tepat di hati nya Ya Allah.. sampaikan juga rasa rindu ini agar dia turut rasa Ya Allah... terima kasih

hancur

jika aku bisa tunjuk betapa hancur hati ini..

pasti..

bukan kau saja yang tak termampu melihat..

malah kau..kau dan juga kau!

takkan mampu..

tapi hati hancur ini hati aku

biar aku hadap!

Its 29th of July

"Only once in your life, i truly believe, you will find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them the things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in  your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting and laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colours seem brighter and brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do, simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." -BobMarley-

I am sorry Mok cause I can't be that girl, I've try the best I can, but still  can't brings a smile to your face, I can't make your day brighter and brilliant, I don't experiencing you Mok with love and joy. I do, I do love you in anything in everything, I still being your loyal friend and possibly soul mate, I give you my heart to be broke.. I used to love you Mok.. Happy Fifth Anny Mok...